A little about me:

I'm 32 & married to the most amazing man, Eddie who is 30. I have a 14 year old daughter from a previous relationship (although Eddie has been her Dad since she was 6). I was 17 when I had her. Eddie and I were married in November 2012 and are now expecting a son in October 2014! We had a bit of a journey for one year trying to conceive our son - I'm sure that someday I will share all of our trials, but for now I'm just going to bask in the joy that we are able to have a child!
It has been 14 years since I have experienced pregnancy and raising a baby so it kind of feels like the first time all over again.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

I want pepperoni pizza at 6 am

Surprise! I'm pregnant 😆
I am currently 5 weeks 5 days.
(I probably won't publish this for a couple months, but wanted to start blogging earlier than I did last time).
How am I feeling?
In August I had a miscarriage 😞 so I'm SUPER paranoid about every little feeling. On Tuesday I was cramping really bad and was convinced that I was miscarrying again. I called my dr and asked for them to check my hcg levels. Wednesday they were 15,400 and Friday they were 22,000. So things are looking good! Sometimes it's just nice to have that reassurance.
I am SOOO exhausted. Like, I find it hard to get out of bed. I was never this exhausted with Kaina or Eddie.
I am super bitchy. My mood swings are a little crazy. :-/ 

Up until now I didn't really have an appetite, but yesterday I started getting hungry again. Right now I really want pepperoni pizza. Yum! Yesterday I wanted fake Kraft American cheese. I can't even remember the last time I ate some (or wanted some). Lol

Mood swings
Extreme fatigue
No other symptoms really. I have a little bit of acne (1 on my chin).
Weird stomach grumbling/churning feeling.... It happens all the time and I never had this happen with Eddie (don't remember with Kaina).
Very depressed :-( I think it's because I am so worried that something is going to happen. Plus, I feel totally alone. (See?!) 

How's Eddie:
Excited (I hope)

How we have been telling people:
Just told my family
Had a onesie on Eddie that says "gonna be a big brother) to tell Eddie's mom and Dave 

Akaina is excited.
I'm not really sure. This pregnancy feels different. Like we are all afraid to be really excited. It makes me sad. It's still really early, so I'm sure this will change :)

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

My baby is ONE!

This has been such a joyful year. We are all so happy to have little cinco in our lives! 💙
He is growing in to being such an amazing person. He has such joy and light about him. It radiates and I love that! So happy/sad that he's one! I love the baby stage and am sad that it goes by so fast, but I also love being able to play with him and watch him grow.